my mum once said:
"three of u i worry for u the most
u this kind of personalities made me worried the most..
changed..
don be so naive so childish anymore my daughter,
there is no more kindness in this world
u need to face the real world
those people u think nice are not as simple as wat u think..."
another day,
she said
"three of u, ur elder sister is the most independent one.
i need not to worry for her.
ur younger sister is way better than u.
she don show her emotion out she hides it even though she don like..
this is wat u n ur elder sister cant do...
but,among three of u.. u are the the oli one with the most kind heart.
this is ur very very good.
however,
just because of this good, it ended up to a bad."
mum...
i love u.
i always love u.
even though sometimes i am so stubborn
i don listen to u
i opposed to what u said...
i am sorry..
i know u want it for my own good..
i love u
but
mum..
give me ur hands..
i know sometimes i am too naive
too easy to believe anyone.
but isn't it good?
is true i will get hurt always
by those hard hearted people.
by those who want to take advantages of me.
but if get hurt a bit,
being taken advantages a bit
i can save the world why not?
if sacrificing myself for tat a bit hurt,
i can make everyone happy
isn't it a happy ending?
if everyone scared of being hurt
being taken advantages of
where is the love?
no one will be showing helping hands to each other again..
isn't it sad?
"Where Is The Love?"
What's wrong with the world, mama
People livin' like they ain't got no mamas
I think the whole world addicted to the drama
Only attracted to things that'll bring you trauma
Overseas, yeah, we try to stop terrorism
But we still got terrorists here livin'In the USA,
the big CIA fightin'
The Bloods and The Crips and the KKK
But if you only have love for your own race
Then you only leave space to discriminate
And to discriminate only generates hate
And when you hate then you're bound to get irate, yeah
Madness is what you demonstrate
And that's exactly how anger works and operates
Man, you gotta have love just to set it straight
Take control of your mind and meditate
Let your soul gravitate to the love, y'all, y'all
People killin', people dyin'
Children hurt and you hear them cryin'
Can you practice what you preach
And would you turn the other cheek
Father, Father, Father help us
Send some guidance from above'
Cause people got me, got me questionin'
Where is the love (Love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love
The love, the love
It just ain't the same, always unchanged
New days are strange, is the world insane
If love and peace is so strong
Why are there pieces of love that don't belong
Nations droppin' bombs
Chemical gasses fillin' lungs of little ones
With ongoin' sufferin' as the youth die young
So ask yourself is the lovin' really gone
So I could ask myself really what is goin' wrong
In this world that we livin' in people keep on givin'in
Makin' wrong decisions, only visions of them dividends
Not respectin' each other, deny thy brother
A war is goin' on but the reason's undercover
The truth is kept secret, it's swept under the rug
If you never know truth then you never know love
Where's the love, y'all, come on (I don't know)
Where's the truth, y'all, come on (I don't know)
Where's the love, y'all
People killin', people dyin'
Children hurt and you hear them cryin'
Can you practice what you preach
And would you turn the other cheek
Father, Father, Father help us
Send some guidance from above'
Cause people got me, got me questionin'
Where is the love (Love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love, the love, the love?
I feel the weight of the world on my shoulder
As I'm gettin' older, y'all, people gets colder
Most of us only care about money makin'
Selfishness got us followin' our wrong direction
Wrong information always shown by the media
Negative images is the main criteria
Infecting the young minds faster than bacteria
Kids wanna act like what they see in the cinema
Yo', whatever happened to the values of humanity
Whatever happened to the fairness in equality
Instead of spreading love we're spreading animosity
Lack of understanding, leading lives away from unity
That's the reason why sometimes I'm feelin' under
That's the reason why sometimes I'm feelin' down
There's no wonder why sometimes I'm feelin' under
Gotta keep my faith alive till love is found
Now ask yourself
Where is the love?
Where is the love?
Where is the love?
Father, Father, Father help us
Send some guidance from above'
Cause people got me, got me questionin'
mum..
u once told me i am weirdo..
i kept on arguing with sisters n cant get along with them
not tat i hate them mumjust tat our points of views are different.
u said over my whole body there are lots of birth marks..
u said it's because i last life was born as a china gal that my parents don wan gal but boy
so they torture me to death
n tats why i got marks
u once told me i was born eleven months
people's babies born with head out first
but i am the reverse one.
u said this is called 坐莲出世
n this person is very clever.
坐莲出世 isn't it like 观音菩萨?
what does this indicate?
can it be one reason to explain
why i so naive
so stupid
so easy to trust people
so easy get hurt n kind?
i got hurt a lot mum...
especially when i am out here alone
in this fast moving
lifeless
cold
city
yet these dont change me
they don change my heart
even though
i've been mistaken by everyone
i've been blamed for everything
still
i am not regretting
cause i took out my sincere
my heart
my love
to meet
to chat
to treat people.
they may think i am acting
i am stupid
i am stubborn
i am noob
still i tried my best to save
to manage
to avoid
even though no one believe me
but i know god will..
He will....
i m certain
He knows n tats why He sent me here
i bet i have changed
not to become a totally isolated
or cold blooded people
but i have changed by chance or by faith
to a tougher person
engaged with a heart of tears n hopes
for a better tomolo
i was once blamed on u mum
for bringing me here
i am sorry for what i did before.
i acted stupid
i acted childish
but mum
it wasn't me
those mask just to shade myself
to cover up myself so that i can bring happiness around
inside.
.i am a person
with a mature n clear mind
on what i am doing
although sometimes i got distracted
still i am ur gal mum.
.i just don like to express myself to anyone
just like how much i don like my wounds to be exposed
i am way much tougher as u think
way much stronger as u think
way much mature as u think
way much calmer as u think
mum n dad
support me
and u will find urself have the greatest daughter ever......